It is Sunday night. I haven't started my homework. I haven't even opened my backpack. I don't want to do my homework or open my backpack. I just want to sit here on the internet and eat nutella and pretzels. And maybe watch a movie later. But I definitely do not want to do anything. I don't even want to think, because thinking usually leads to me thinking about things that I'd rather not think about. Like how I have no chance with the person I like, or Spanish class, or taking the ACT and SAT, or college. None of those things I want to think about right now.
My brain has been thinking too much all weekend. Yesterday I was thinking a lot. Then I went to go see Disco Inferno (I mentioned that before). That was a lot of fun and I got to see so many of my friends! And the person I like... Normally, one would be excited about seeing, ya know, that someone that they can't stop thinking about. But I hate that I can't stop thinking about them. And whenever I see them I think about how I have no chance. So when I left yesterday, that was all I could think about. How hopeless this stupid little crush is and how much I wish I could get over it but can't. Then, when I was trying to sleep last night, I couldn't because my brain wouldn't shut up!
And now, today, I'm thinking about the future. Fan-freaking-tastic. My friend is going to school in Japan after this year is over. It's very possible that I could never see her again, because next year I'm a senior. Then I'm going to college. So I'm thinking about that. And college! My college/career counselor talked to me last week at school! I'm taking the ACT in a few weeks. Then the SAT like a month after that. But earlier this week I had a dream that I didn't get accepted into any colleges. What if I don't? That would be awful... I mean, community college is fine, but I want to go to a four year university from the start. And then thinking about that, what if I can't afford it? And I want to go out of state, but all my friends want to stay in state. What if I never see them after graduation?
Grr. There needs to be an off-switch for my brain because, at this rate, tonight will probably be another sleepless, thoughtful night.
Disneyland Trips: 4
Books Read: 7
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
I think this will be a good week.
Despite Iowa testing for the next few days, which I don't get the point of at all, and despite the fact that I hate the classes I have tomorrow, I just have a feeling this week is going to be good. And there are a few reasons for that.
First, there was a new episode of Chuck tonight. It was amazing.
Second, this was a four day weekend. I've been my true, lazy self for the last few days. And I really like short weeks. And the classes that I actually like are on Friday, so I get to end the school week on a high note.
Third, I went to Disneyland twice this weekend. Twice. On Friday, I went with Ruby and it was nice and sunny and a lot of fun, even though we missed Demi Lovato... And today I went with my family for my mom's birthday. I don't care if it was pouring rain when we first got there, it was so much fun and I ate like a pig. I had this amazing burrito with rice and beans, and after that digested, I had this wonderful Chocolate Chip Cookie Hot Fudge Sunday. It's even more delicious than it sounds. I ate the entire thing, and my dad didn't even finish his. It was amazing.
And finally, I'm going to be seeing the guy that I kind of sort of like for the first time in about two months probably tomorrow, and if not tomorrow, then on Saturday. Tomorrow, everyone involved in DTASC is meeting after school. Hopefully he knows about that, but he didn't know that he was doing DTASC until I told him, so maybe no one told him... But if he doesn't go tomorrow, I'm definitely going to see him on Saturday because he's in Disco Inferno and that's when I'm going to see it. I'm also going to see a lot of my other friends that I haven't seen in a while, or that I see almost every day, tomorrow and Saturday.
I really hope those factors add up to a good week. It doesn't have to be great, just good. Anyway, I should get to sleep so I'm not cranky tomorrow morning when I have to get up for school. Goodnight.
Disneyland Trips: 4
Books Read: 7
First, there was a new episode of Chuck tonight. It was amazing.
Second, this was a four day weekend. I've been my true, lazy self for the last few days. And I really like short weeks. And the classes that I actually like are on Friday, so I get to end the school week on a high note.
Third, I went to Disneyland twice this weekend. Twice. On Friday, I went with Ruby and it was nice and sunny and a lot of fun, even though we missed Demi Lovato... And today I went with my family for my mom's birthday. I don't care if it was pouring rain when we first got there, it was so much fun and I ate like a pig. I had this amazing burrito with rice and beans, and after that digested, I had this wonderful Chocolate Chip Cookie Hot Fudge Sunday. It's even more delicious than it sounds. I ate the entire thing, and my dad didn't even finish his. It was amazing.
And finally, I'm going to be seeing the guy that I kind of sort of like for the first time in about two months probably tomorrow, and if not tomorrow, then on Saturday. Tomorrow, everyone involved in DTASC is meeting after school. Hopefully he knows about that, but he didn't know that he was doing DTASC until I told him, so maybe no one told him... But if he doesn't go tomorrow, I'm definitely going to see him on Saturday because he's in Disco Inferno and that's when I'm going to see it. I'm also going to see a lot of my other friends that I haven't seen in a while, or that I see almost every day, tomorrow and Saturday.
I really hope those factors add up to a good week. It doesn't have to be great, just good. Anyway, I should get to sleep so I'm not cranky tomorrow morning when I have to get up for school. Goodnight.
Disneyland Trips: 4
Books Read: 7
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
What's the point?
The weeks always seem to drag on and on. We can't wait for time to pass. But what are we waiting for? Summer? Well, summer's great and all, but it gets boring after a while. What else could we be waiting for? Graduation? But after that is college. After college? Life. But life's going on right now. Gah, my brain hurts.
These past few weeks have seemed to drag on and on. Powder Puff was on Friday. Juniors lost. I didn't really care, I expected that. There were other reasons I was in an awful mood that night that may have had something to do with seeing a certain someone holding hands with someone whose face I wanted to rip off upon seeing them together. Last week I started meeting with Mr. B and Caity to work on cutting the King Lear script for DTASC. We meet on Mondays and Tuesdays. Yesterday, we finished cutting what we had, but it's still about twelve minutes when it needs to be eight. And Mr. B realized he needs another guy for our group. But he's going to try to cut it down to eight minutes so we can start blocking next time we meet.
Today, we got our course sign up sheets for next year. Senior year. Oh, crap, senior year? What happened to that lonely, little freshman I was? It didn't seem like that long ago! Anyway, I know I want to take statistics instead of honors pre calc. Because I don't like math anymore. I also want to take AP Psychology and AP Literature. Religion is a requirement, and I want to take Pastoral Ministry with Miss Leon, but I don't know if I'll be able to take that because all of the classes I want to take have only one class. Gah. And I'm not sure whether or not I should take AP Environmental Science. I think it seems interesting and I like the teacher, but a third AP class might be a little too much work, especially considering Lindsey wants me to apply for yearbook, Bianca wants me to join newspaper, and I still want to be involved in drama. If I don't take APES, I'll probably take Marine Biology, because that's the same teacher. And then that leaves one more class. Some people take an elective, but I don't want to take like, Foods and Nutrition or something easy like that because that won't look too great for colleges. But I don't know what academic electives there are that I could possibly take.
And now, I'm sitting here, writing some long blog post that nobody's going to read when I should be doing homework, or reading, or doing something productive. And, alas, I can't stop thinking about someone again (yes, the same person I mentioned a few paragraphs ago). Fantastic.
Disneyland Trips: Sadly, I haven't been able to go in a while, so it's still 2.
Books Read: 6
These past few weeks have seemed to drag on and on. Powder Puff was on Friday. Juniors lost. I didn't really care, I expected that. There were other reasons I was in an awful mood that night that may have had something to do with seeing a certain someone holding hands with someone whose face I wanted to rip off upon seeing them together. Last week I started meeting with Mr. B and Caity to work on cutting the King Lear script for DTASC. We meet on Mondays and Tuesdays. Yesterday, we finished cutting what we had, but it's still about twelve minutes when it needs to be eight. And Mr. B realized he needs another guy for our group. But he's going to try to cut it down to eight minutes so we can start blocking next time we meet.
Today, we got our course sign up sheets for next year. Senior year. Oh, crap, senior year? What happened to that lonely, little freshman I was? It didn't seem like that long ago! Anyway, I know I want to take statistics instead of honors pre calc. Because I don't like math anymore. I also want to take AP Psychology and AP Literature. Religion is a requirement, and I want to take Pastoral Ministry with Miss Leon, but I don't know if I'll be able to take that because all of the classes I want to take have only one class. Gah. And I'm not sure whether or not I should take AP Environmental Science. I think it seems interesting and I like the teacher, but a third AP class might be a little too much work, especially considering Lindsey wants me to apply for yearbook, Bianca wants me to join newspaper, and I still want to be involved in drama. If I don't take APES, I'll probably take Marine Biology, because that's the same teacher. And then that leaves one more class. Some people take an elective, but I don't want to take like, Foods and Nutrition or something easy like that because that won't look too great for colleges. But I don't know what academic electives there are that I could possibly take.
And now, I'm sitting here, writing some long blog post that nobody's going to read when I should be doing homework, or reading, or doing something productive. And, alas, I can't stop thinking about someone again (yes, the same person I mentioned a few paragraphs ago). Fantastic.
Disneyland Trips: Sadly, I haven't been able to go in a while, so it's still 2.
Books Read: 6
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