I am currently sitting in my AP Literature class, listening to the prosecution and defense groups for the Hamlet trial we're doing discuss things. This is one of those times that I'm glad I'm the judge. I get to sit here on my laptop, listening to them, but also type up a much-needed blog post.
The Diviners opened this weekend. This is my last show in high school and gosh, it's so much fun! If you don't know what The Diviners is about, you can click here to read a brief description. But it has been so much fun. The cast is amazing and we're always goofing off backstage. This might be the most fun I've had doing a show, except possibly Night of the Living Dead because, come on, it's pretty tough to beat zombies and fake blood!
During the last month and a few weeks that we've been working on this show, I feel like I've grown so much, both as a person, and in my acting ability. This director is amazing and he's helped me so much along the way. I have a few "romantic" scenes with my friend Mat, and I was having major troubles acting that well, so there was one point where he kept the two of us onstage and we talked it out. We talked about why I was having trouble with it, what I can do to make it better, what he can do to make it easier on me. I swear we were just sitting there for about a half an hour. Once we got that over with, everyone was already halfway finished with their lunch! But it helped because I was so much better after that.
And now that we've opened and done four shows, I just love it even more. My other director came to see the show last night with his family. I like it when people tell me that I did really well. Both of my directors have told me that I'm doing a really good job, and that just makes me feel really good about myself. Mama B told me that I was very believable at pretending to be attracted to Mat! Hah, she even said that I did a better job at that than Nicole did in Once On This Island. Emma told me that my screams at the end gave her chills. Jess told me that her sister started crying because of my screaming. It's just, things like that make me feel very accomplished. Last night when I was screaming and crying at the end of the show, after the blackout and when we were just standing there, I felt like I was still crying. I was breathing heavily and blinking away tears and shaking. I think that was my best performance so far.
I really can't wait for Wednesday when we get back to performing! I really hope my director's family comes again, because I really love them. Except I will probably be pretty sad on closing night with senior circle and everything. But I'm not going to think about that right now! I'm just going to enjoy these last few high school performance and give my all.
Monday, April 23, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
I am so ready for college.
This has been my first week back at school after spring break, and although we didn't have school on Monday and today is only Thursday, it feels like the longest week ever (albeit, it could have something to do with the fact that it's hell week, but that's beside the point).
I'm in English class right now and I just finished my last ever independent reading test. EVER. The play I read was pretty good, Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett, but I'm just so glad it's over. It just means that I'm one step closer to school being over. One step closer to graduating. One step closer to college.
I visited LMU on Sunday, the college I'll be attending. It was incredible. I absolutely love it there. The campus is so beautiful, and the people are so friendly, and the screenwriting program is amazing. The head of the screenwriting department is just such an awesome person and I can't wait to have class with him. The current students majoring in screenwriting are really nice and they seem just so passionate and dedicated to their choice major. One of my favorite things is that every Monday night, the school of film and television shows a movie, and a person who worked on the movie comes to talk about it and answer questions after. I know what I'll be doing every Monday night next year! I just paid for the commitment deposit last night, so it's now official: I'm in the LMU class of 2016! Go Lions!!
It's just...seeing life on that campus made me so excited for college. I'm over high school. I don't want to do any work. I just want to perform The Diviners, go to prom, Gradnite, Boscars, and then graduate. Senior exit interviews are next week. Once those are over, there is barely a month left of school, and then graduation is on June 1. We're in the final stretch. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and it's not just an oncoming train.
I'm in English class right now and I just finished my last ever independent reading test. EVER. The play I read was pretty good, Waiting for Godot by Samuel Beckett, but I'm just so glad it's over. It just means that I'm one step closer to school being over. One step closer to graduating. One step closer to college.
I visited LMU on Sunday, the college I'll be attending. It was incredible. I absolutely love it there. The campus is so beautiful, and the people are so friendly, and the screenwriting program is amazing. The head of the screenwriting department is just such an awesome person and I can't wait to have class with him. The current students majoring in screenwriting are really nice and they seem just so passionate and dedicated to their choice major. One of my favorite things is that every Monday night, the school of film and television shows a movie, and a person who worked on the movie comes to talk about it and answer questions after. I know what I'll be doing every Monday night next year! I just paid for the commitment deposit last night, so it's now official: I'm in the LMU class of 2016! Go Lions!!
It's just...seeing life on that campus made me so excited for college. I'm over high school. I don't want to do any work. I just want to perform The Diviners, go to prom, Gradnite, Boscars, and then graduate. Senior exit interviews are next week. Once those are over, there is barely a month left of school, and then graduation is on June 1. We're in the final stretch. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, and it's not just an oncoming train.
Saturday, April 14, 2012
I love Joss Whedon!
I'm not sure if you know this or not, but I am going to be pursuing a career as a screenwriter. Or, more specifically, writer for television, but basically same thing. That's what I'll be going to school for starting next year and it's what I want to do for a living. And Joss Whedon is the person I look up to in this field.
I tell people (friends, family, etc) that I want to be a screenwriter, and then they'll ask me what kind of movies or tv shows I want to write. My short answer to this question is, "I want to be like the female version of Joss Whedon." I have said this exact sentence multiple times. Joss Whedon comes up with brilliant ideas for television shows and writes amazing, real characters. I like how his shows are in the supernatural/science fiction genre. I mean, I wouldn't want to watch or write about real situations. If I'm going to watch or write something, I want it to be about something unreal, something that makes you think, something that makes you feel. I can't tell you how many times Joss Whedon has made me cry, and it's because the situations, the characters, they make you feel. I like that.
The point of this post isn't to just rant about how wonderful Joss Whedon is. I actually found this little survey on Tumblr in the Dollhouse tag, so I figured I could fill it out on here!
1. Favorite Joss Whedon show? Buffy the Vampire Slayer
2. Least favorite Joss Whedon show? The only one I haven't seen yet is Angel, so I guess that.
3. Favorite Buffy episode? Either Once More With Feeling or Tabula Rasa
4. Least favorite Buffy episode? Either Doublemeat Palace or Ted. Those both were just hard for me to watch for some reason.
5. Favorite Buffy character? Willow Rosenberg!
6. Least favorite Buffy character? Probably Riley.
7. Favorite Angel episode? I haven't watched Angel, sorry! I will soon though!
8. Least favorite Angel episode? see above
9. Favorite Angel character? I'll just leave these blank
10. Least favorite Angel character?
11. Favorite Firefly episode? Jaynestown
12. Favorite Firefly character? Kaylee or River
13. Favorite Dollhouse episode? Epitaph One and Two
14. Favorite Dollhouse character? I really love Mag, but she was only in two episodes, so if I can't say her because of that, then Priya or Bennet (who was also only in a few episodes but whatever).
15. Favorite character from Dr. Horrible? Penny
16. Character I love that everyone seems to hate? Dawn
17. Character I hate that everyone seems to love? Angel, and I'm not a big fan of Paul
18. Whedonverse OTP? Willow/Tara, Xander/Anya, Buffy/Spike
19. Most random ship I sail? Inara/Kaylee (yes, random but I don't care) and Mag/Kilo (not as random because Mag does have a crush on her!)
20. Favorite season of Buffy? 4
21. Favorite season of Angel? Haven't seen it.
22. Prettiest Buffyverse character? Faith
23. Whedonverse character I want to slap? Angel
24. Whedonverse character I want to marry? Spike, Willow, Wash
25. How I became a Joss Whedon fan? My dad made me watch Firefly, I fell in love, and decided to watch Buffy on Netflix. Then Dollhouse. I had already seen Dr. Horrible but didn't know much about Joss Whedon at the time.
2. Least favorite Joss Whedon show? The only one I haven't seen yet is Angel, so I guess that.
3. Favorite Buffy episode? Either Once More With Feeling or Tabula Rasa
4. Least favorite Buffy episode? Either Doublemeat Palace or Ted. Those both were just hard for me to watch for some reason.
5. Favorite Buffy character? Willow Rosenberg!
6. Least favorite Buffy character? Probably Riley.
7. Favorite Angel episode? I haven't watched Angel, sorry! I will soon though!
8. Least favorite Angel episode? see above
9. Favorite Angel character? I'll just leave these blank
10. Least favorite Angel character?
11. Favorite Firefly episode? Jaynestown
12. Favorite Firefly character? Kaylee or River
13. Favorite Dollhouse episode? Epitaph One and Two
14. Favorite Dollhouse character? I really love Mag, but she was only in two episodes, so if I can't say her because of that, then Priya or Bennet (who was also only in a few episodes but whatever).
15. Favorite character from Dr. Horrible? Penny
16. Character I love that everyone seems to hate? Dawn
17. Character I hate that everyone seems to love? Angel, and I'm not a big fan of Paul
18. Whedonverse OTP? Willow/Tara, Xander/Anya, Buffy/Spike
19. Most random ship I sail? Inara/Kaylee (yes, random but I don't care) and Mag/Kilo (not as random because Mag does have a crush on her!)
20. Favorite season of Buffy? 4
21. Favorite season of Angel? Haven't seen it.
22. Prettiest Buffyverse character? Faith
23. Whedonverse character I want to slap? Angel
24. Whedonverse character I want to marry? Spike, Willow, Wash
25. How I became a Joss Whedon fan? My dad made me watch Firefly, I fell in love, and decided to watch Buffy on Netflix. Then Dollhouse. I had already seen Dr. Horrible but didn't know much about Joss Whedon at the time.
So...that's it! If you're also a fan of Joss Whedon, feel free to let me know your answers in the comments! :)
Thursday, April 12, 2012
I have a problem
Yes, I know, this isn't the first time I've missed a day's blog post, and it probably won't be the last. I'm not going to apologize. However, I am going to steal nelamonster's idea from a comment on my first blog post this month. Instead of BEDA, I'm going to change it to BMAFIA. Blogs may appear frequently in April. So thank you for that idea.
You know how when you're in school, you can't wait for break, and then when you're on break, you're always bored and want school to start again? It hasn't been like that for this year's spring break. I would be perfectly satisfied if I could sit in bed watching Netflix all day and only get out of bed to eat or go to the bathroom. And maybe go to Disneyland every week or so. Like, I know that people usually need some sort of never-ending purpose in life (IE, go to school so you can get good grades so you can graduate so you can go to college so you can get a good job, etc.) However, I have been sitting on my ass in bed watching Netflix all spring break and I haven't had any desire to do homework or look at college stuff or think about school or anything. Like, I would be perfectly content just doing this for the rest of my life. Maybe not happy, but content. That might be a problem.
I started watching Dollhouse the other day and it's really freaking good. But now that I have to go to rehearsal again every day, it's like, getting in the way of me being able to watch more. I can only watch three or four episodes a day instead of the normal six or seven. I know, I have a problem. Frankly, I don't care. JOSS WHEDON IS AWESOME.
Another conclusion I've come to recently that is irrelevant but it's my blog so I don't care. Felicia Day is kind of awesome. I mean, I've only seen her in Dr. Horrible and her smallish appearances in Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Dollhouse, but she seems kind of awesome and I think I really like her. I think I'm going to watch The Guild once I'm done with Dollhouse. Which I should be getting back to right now. Netflix awaits me!
You know how when you're in school, you can't wait for break, and then when you're on break, you're always bored and want school to start again? It hasn't been like that for this year's spring break. I would be perfectly satisfied if I could sit in bed watching Netflix all day and only get out of bed to eat or go to the bathroom. And maybe go to Disneyland every week or so. Like, I know that people usually need some sort of never-ending purpose in life (IE, go to school so you can get good grades so you can graduate so you can go to college so you can get a good job, etc.) However, I have been sitting on my ass in bed watching Netflix all spring break and I haven't had any desire to do homework or look at college stuff or think about school or anything. Like, I would be perfectly content just doing this for the rest of my life. Maybe not happy, but content. That might be a problem.
I started watching Dollhouse the other day and it's really freaking good. But now that I have to go to rehearsal again every day, it's like, getting in the way of me being able to watch more. I can only watch three or four episodes a day instead of the normal six or seven. I know, I have a problem. Frankly, I don't care. JOSS WHEDON IS AWESOME.
Another conclusion I've come to recently that is irrelevant but it's my blog so I don't care. Felicia Day is kind of awesome. I mean, I've only seen her in Dr. Horrible and her smallish appearances in Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Dollhouse, but she seems kind of awesome and I think I really like her. I think I'm going to watch The Guild once I'm done with Dollhouse. Which I should be getting back to right now. Netflix awaits me!
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
In which I rant about Buffy the Vampire Slayer
I'm not going to apologize for missing yesterday, I'm not going to try to come up with an excuse other than "I forgot", and I'm not going to apologize for being late again today (or yesterday, but I'm still awake, so today). But I am in an emotional state right now and it's because I finished watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Okay, go ahead, laugh all you want, but that show is amazing. Like, a few months ago, I was asking some people what tv shows I should watch on Netflix and some that I already knew were good were Firefly, Sherlock, and Buffy, and some people literally said, "Watch Buffy. It's life changing." I honestly didn't believe them until I actually started watching the show. I swear, it's as life changing as a television series could possibly be. It's an amazingly well-written show. The premise is great, the characters are real, and you can't help but fall in love with each and every one of them. Even the characters that I didn't like, I liked. Except for Warren*. That guy was just a dick.
But I just finished the final episode of season 7 and I spent the last twenty minutes of it sobbing. This is where I will talk about my thoughts of the episode. Warning: spoilers ahead! If you're like me and are late to watch Buffy and don't want to be spoiled, stop reading, or just skip the next paragraph (I promise to keep it all in one paragraph, however long it may be). If you've already watched Buffy, or you just don't care (which, you should, but I can't control what you do), then read on.
This is probably going to be a jumble of thoughts in no particular order except for when they come to me. Hooray for stream of consciousness! Oh my god when Andrew and Anya were robbing the hospital and Andrew was saying that she was going to live and he was going to die, that was so heartbreaking because Anya dies saving him. It was horrible how Xander was calling for Anya and the camera panned to show her lifeless body on the floor and he couldn't even see her. And then when Andrew said, "Why aren't I dead?" That broke my heart all over again. Spike...I don't even want to talk about Spike. But when the Welcome to Sunnydale sign fell over, I cried harder because I thought of a post on Tumblr that said something like, "Whenever the Sunnydale sign falls over, you know it's Spike's fault." Damn. Oh, god, and Willow. "You're a goddess." Willow is like, my all-time favorite fictional character ever. To overcome that darkness just a year before and become something so pure when attempting even more difficult magic is an amazing feat. And my last thought is that I liked how Faith was part of that sort of "final group" at the end. I mean, there were the potentials/new slayers nearer to the bus, but then there was the group away from the bus. Buffy, Willow, Xander, Giles, Dawn...and Faith. I really liked that she was included in that. It's like...sure, she was bad, but she just helped save the damn world. She was one of the people who had known the Scooby gang the longest. Hell, she was there before Dawn, but there's the whole fake memories of Dawn thing. It's just...it kind of shows that she was accepted and she's part of the group again after going bad. She's redeemed herself, she's a leader, and she saved the world. I like Faith if you hadn't guessed that by now.
Anyway, done ranting about Buffy now. I'm still hyped up on emotion from that. My face still has tear stains. I've decided that I want a break from the Buffy universe, so I won't watch Angel yet, but I don't want a break from Joss Whedon because although he is an evil bastard, he is a freaking genius. So I've decided that I'm going to watch Dollhouse. And because Eliza Dushku is hot, but that's beside the point.
Wish me luck in recovering from my post-Buffy depression.
*Warren, if you don't watch Buffy, killed one of my favorite characters. He deserved what he got.
Okay, go ahead, laugh all you want, but that show is amazing. Like, a few months ago, I was asking some people what tv shows I should watch on Netflix and some that I already knew were good were Firefly, Sherlock, and Buffy, and some people literally said, "Watch Buffy. It's life changing." I honestly didn't believe them until I actually started watching the show. I swear, it's as life changing as a television series could possibly be. It's an amazingly well-written show. The premise is great, the characters are real, and you can't help but fall in love with each and every one of them. Even the characters that I didn't like, I liked. Except for Warren*. That guy was just a dick.
But I just finished the final episode of season 7 and I spent the last twenty minutes of it sobbing. This is where I will talk about my thoughts of the episode. Warning: spoilers ahead! If you're like me and are late to watch Buffy and don't want to be spoiled, stop reading, or just skip the next paragraph (I promise to keep it all in one paragraph, however long it may be). If you've already watched Buffy, or you just don't care (which, you should, but I can't control what you do), then read on.
This is probably going to be a jumble of thoughts in no particular order except for when they come to me. Hooray for stream of consciousness! Oh my god when Andrew and Anya were robbing the hospital and Andrew was saying that she was going to live and he was going to die, that was so heartbreaking because Anya dies saving him. It was horrible how Xander was calling for Anya and the camera panned to show her lifeless body on the floor and he couldn't even see her. And then when Andrew said, "Why aren't I dead?" That broke my heart all over again. Spike...I don't even want to talk about Spike. But when the Welcome to Sunnydale sign fell over, I cried harder because I thought of a post on Tumblr that said something like, "Whenever the Sunnydale sign falls over, you know it's Spike's fault." Damn. Oh, god, and Willow. "You're a goddess." Willow is like, my all-time favorite fictional character ever. To overcome that darkness just a year before and become something so pure when attempting even more difficult magic is an amazing feat. And my last thought is that I liked how Faith was part of that sort of "final group" at the end. I mean, there were the potentials/new slayers nearer to the bus, but then there was the group away from the bus. Buffy, Willow, Xander, Giles, Dawn...and Faith. I really liked that she was included in that. It's like...sure, she was bad, but she just helped save the damn world. She was one of the people who had known the Scooby gang the longest. Hell, she was there before Dawn, but there's the whole fake memories of Dawn thing. It's just...it kind of shows that she was accepted and she's part of the group again after going bad. She's redeemed herself, she's a leader, and she saved the world. I like Faith if you hadn't guessed that by now.
Anyway, done ranting about Buffy now. I'm still hyped up on emotion from that. My face still has tear stains. I've decided that I want a break from the Buffy universe, so I won't watch Angel yet, but I don't want a break from Joss Whedon because although he is an evil bastard, he is a freaking genius. So I've decided that I'm going to watch Dollhouse. And because Eliza Dushku is hot, but that's beside the point.
Wish me luck in recovering from my post-Buffy depression.
*Warren, if you don't watch Buffy, killed one of my favorite characters. He deserved what he got.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
I Like Television
Netflix is wonderful. I used to not have Netflix and when I finished scrolling through Tumblr, I would be very bored. Or if there was a TV show or movie I wanted to watch, I had to do it *cough*illegally*cough* online and with very bad quality and it would take forever to load and it wasn't great.
Now that I have Netflix, I'm never bored. If I miraculously catch up to posts on Tumblr (which has been happening a lot because it's break and I'm on practically 24/7) then I can just turn on Netflix, and it's legal, doesn't take long to load, high quality, etc.
And it lets me watch so many tv shows I've been meaning to watch! Like Firefly, Sherlock, Skins, and most importantly, Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I seriously think that Buffy the Vampire Slayer is my new favorite show (I think I might like it more than Doctor Who, if they're not tied). And now I'm almost done watching the show, I'm on season 7.
I kind of wish it didn't have to end because I'd love to see infinite adventures with Buffy, Willow, and Xander, but everything must come to an end. And, once I'm done watching Buffy, I can still watch Angel, and start other shows I've been meaning to watch! Like Merlin, Dollhouse (Joss Whedon is awesome and Eliza Dushku is hot), The Guild, Torchwood, and a few other things that aren't coming to mind right now.
Anyway, if you watch Buffy, let me know because I could always use more friends with common interests! Particularly because I don't have any friends that also watch Buffy... And if you have any suggestions for TV shows to watch, let me know!
Now that I have Netflix, I'm never bored. If I miraculously catch up to posts on Tumblr (which has been happening a lot because it's break and I'm on practically 24/7) then I can just turn on Netflix, and it's legal, doesn't take long to load, high quality, etc.
And it lets me watch so many tv shows I've been meaning to watch! Like Firefly, Sherlock, Skins, and most importantly, Buffy the Vampire Slayer. I seriously think that Buffy the Vampire Slayer is my new favorite show (I think I might like it more than Doctor Who, if they're not tied). And now I'm almost done watching the show, I'm on season 7.
I kind of wish it didn't have to end because I'd love to see infinite adventures with Buffy, Willow, and Xander, but everything must come to an end. And, once I'm done watching Buffy, I can still watch Angel, and start other shows I've been meaning to watch! Like Merlin, Dollhouse (Joss Whedon is awesome and Eliza Dushku is hot), The Guild, Torchwood, and a few other things that aren't coming to mind right now.
Anyway, if you watch Buffy, let me know because I could always use more friends with common interests! Particularly because I don't have any friends that also watch Buffy... And if you have any suggestions for TV shows to watch, let me know!
Profound Thoughts at 2 AM
I haven't gone to sleep yet so it doesn't count as missing a day!
I can't believe I almost forgot today's post. And I forgot yesterday's photo. Wow, I'm doing really horribly at keeping up with things this year.
I cleaned my room today. Well, kind of. And I took my Once On This Island script out of my backpack. I think I've been clinging to that show longer than necessary. It's been over for three weeks and I was still carrying around my script in my backpack... It's like, taking it out would mean that it actually is over. Even though I know it's over. I just didn't want it to be over.
I've been very nostalgic today. I was also looking at my scripts for Night of the Living Dead and Phantom Tollbooth. I miss those shows, too. It's weird to think that Tollbooth was a year and a half ago...
The last time I went bowling was after a performance of Phantom Tollbooth. It was fun. And I'm going bowling for the first time since then tomorrow with a lot of the same people. I don't know, it seems kind of weird to me.
Time is a weird thing. It passes by and things you loved are gone and in the past, but they're still there. You can think about them and remember them, but you can't actually go back to them. I kind of wish you could. Sometimes the past is better than the present. And thinking about the future is too scary.
Yeah, I need to go to sleep and stop thinking.
I can't believe I almost forgot today's post. And I forgot yesterday's photo. Wow, I'm doing really horribly at keeping up with things this year.
I cleaned my room today. Well, kind of. And I took my Once On This Island script out of my backpack. I think I've been clinging to that show longer than necessary. It's been over for three weeks and I was still carrying around my script in my backpack... It's like, taking it out would mean that it actually is over. Even though I know it's over. I just didn't want it to be over.
I've been very nostalgic today. I was also looking at my scripts for Night of the Living Dead and Phantom Tollbooth. I miss those shows, too. It's weird to think that Tollbooth was a year and a half ago...
The last time I went bowling was after a performance of Phantom Tollbooth. It was fun. And I'm going bowling for the first time since then tomorrow with a lot of the same people. I don't know, it seems kind of weird to me.
Time is a weird thing. It passes by and things you loved are gone and in the past, but they're still there. You can think about them and remember them, but you can't actually go back to them. I kind of wish you could. Sometimes the past is better than the present. And thinking about the future is too scary.
Yeah, I need to go to sleep and stop thinking.
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